think about it....

I dont know how it gets better than, this you take my hand and drag me head first FEARLESS--

Im irritated i was scheduled to work tonight saturday night and sunday night. The scheduke is made a month in advance so my boss[s] should tell me thsi stuff. BUT they scheduled too many people so I HAD TO GET SENT HOME. So i get screwed over 30 hours. AFTER they just screwed me 16 hours. What money right? Who needs it? Who needs to work? I DO. I'm so angry and frustrated. I just had to post taht real quick.

ONE TREE HILL LOVE<3

So i absolutely LOVELOVELOVE One Tree Hill. I love it. I love all the actors/actress's in the show im obsessed. lol i hope haley and nathan work things out. AND OMG Haley tells lucas not to marry Lindsey. ahhh

I finally got ahold of nicki after having plans with her on friday and saturday and completely got blown off by her. Then i wasn't able to get ahold of her for 4 DAYS. I almost had a heart attack cause i thought she was dead. I worked out today on the elliptical. goodness was i tired. im not gonna say how long i ran for cause its pathetic but hey its a start. Wanna know what i ate? CHINESE! and CAKE! And i just freakin worked out. I got to change my eating habits. They suck. Work is crazyyy i swear that place is freakin nuts. I was supposed to work friday saturday and sunday 3rd shift. Well they called and i was supposed to work 1st shift on Thursday and Friday cause one of the residents is sick and has to stay home from work so I would be working from 8-4 just me and her both on thursday and friday. Then friday saturday and sunday 3rd shift still. WELL i just got a call they had to call an ambulance for this resident im supposed to take care of thursday and friday so they aren't sure if she will be admitted or not. but so yea tomorrow im working 3-8 to cover my boss's shift incase she has to be in the hospital with her. Yes confusing I know-- but seriously it is crazy. I dont mind its kinda fun all this craziness but i know the fun-ness wont last long haha. Anyways i'm still looking for an apartment. Trying to save money. Once i get my $400 cell phone bill paid to t-mobile[dont have them anymore they suck] and pay my $300 credit card off then i can start saving. I jsut wanna catch up on all my big bills so i dont gotta worry about them anymore. So yea lifes crazy but its okay. And the list i posted before this. None of them are taken care of. lol i still need to calll the dr and the dentist. anyways goodnight!!!

I'm only fooling myself....

for some reason i dear writing these blogs! lol but life sucks. its always one thing after another and its never ending. NEVER.

Heres a list of things that are on my mind:

1) friends-- i am the only one attempting to have a friendship with several of my friends its like they make no effort to talk to me or hang out.

2)Doctors appointments-- I have so many problems that need taken care of. girl problems weight problems wisdom teeth.. etc...

3)my job-- I LOVE IT. But this 2nd and 3rd shift back and forth back and forth back and foth is KILLIN ME. Im not gonna quit its just been on my mind alot about how all these different shifts are screwing me up.

4) Moving- I need to move out ASAP but i need money and that means i HAVE TO work 2nd and 3rd shifts if i want to get 40 hours so i can have good paychecks and save money and be able to move. I want to find a nice apartment thats in my price range that isn't creepy.

5)MONEY IS ALWAYS ON MY MIND

6)My weight-- i am so lazy-- i love food(who doesn't?) and i need to start working on losing weight.

7)church-- I am confused about it and im not sure when i should start going back. Shouold i go back to my old ways and just drink all the time and become a loser again? JK NO WAY.

8) Back to friends-- some of my friends are loserss... serioulsy im so glad im not like them.
I have so many things on my mind.. its not even funny. I need to go back to a therapist.BUt you need money to do anything. And im just so stressed.

I will write more tomorrow or something im too lazy to type anymore.